4-1-2013
Passing the watching eyes of the
security agents surrounded my house to attend the trial was difficult.
The night before the appeal hearing
I did not sleep because I was just afraid that if I closed my eyes to sleep I
might wake up late. I laid in bed waiting for the morning light.
4:00 AM I felt insecure, restless,
and worried that security police might know where I stayed and would barricade
me inside. Strange noises outside of the door worried me.
I sat up, turned on the lights,
opened the laptop to read the Bible and prayed. I repeatedly recited the
passage of Peace.
5:30 AM, I opened the door and
stepped outside to insure everything was peaceful. I put on exercise clothes
then ran to the street.
After my morning coffee, at about
8:00 AM I walked by the court house and saw only security agents standing
around the place. No familiar faces of the public were seen. I decided to stop
at a place nearby then turned around and slowly walked back to the court house.
A little pass 8:00 AM I walked from
the intersection of Pasteur- Ly Tu Trong Street to Co Da park, across from the
Court. When I stopped in front of the Court, I saw many staring eyes, and
cameras pointed toward me.
I felt alone and lost among a crowd
of strangers with bullet eyes staring toward me. I was careless! I chose a seat
facing the Court to sit down, then I whispered the Peace prayer for those who
are being tried in court. After a little while, security police came to chase
me away. I crossed the street to a bus station on the other side of the Court,
and waited for the bus home. There are a few other people already sat there
because they could not attend the trial. We started to make conversation.
Shortly after that, the police came to chase us away. I went back in the Park,
just when Vu Sy Hoang (Face book nicknames Hanh Nhan) and Bach Viet arrived. We
entered the Park sat chatting with each other. Minutes later, a crowd of
police, security, Civil Defense, City Order enforcers walked toward us. Sensing
that something bad about to happen, we decided to get up and leave the park. A
senior police officer ran after me and barked an order:
- I suggest you show me your ID
card.
- What! You want to check my ID
card for walking in the park?
- I am security police. I have the
right to check the ID card of anyone.
- It is true that you have the
right to check the ID card of people but only after 11:00 pm if you caught me
wandering on the street. Now I go to the park in broad day light, why do you
want to check my ID card? What do you want?
They speed toward me and Hanh Nhan
trying to grab us. I ran out on the street and yelled loudly. They quickly and
rudely pushed me into a car waiting nearby. Hanh Nhan could not escape either.
They grabbed his neck, pushed him on the ground and punched him in the face.
His lips bled. They lifted him by his hands and legs like carrying a pig and
threw him in the car. His trouser was torn.
In the car, they continued to
menace and beat us. They ripped off the cell phone from me.
I was taken to the police station
of Nguyen Cu Trinh Ward, while Hanh Nhan was taken to other place. They pushed
me into an office in the police station. An aggressive security police,
unjustly hit me in the face, the neck and my two shoulders as if he and I had
had an eternal feud with each other in the past. I was in pain.
After beating me, he left the room
to confer with his comrades, leaving me with a local ward police and a young
girl from the Security Team of District 1. I turned to ask her a question:
- How old are you?
- 21
- You are so young. You must have
just graduated from school, right?
The little girl nodded. I said:
- Do you think the security agents
have the right to do what the law does not allow?
The girl had not answered when the
local police stopped her:
- Calm down! You had to do
something wrong for the police to bring you here. There are many other people
on the street why didn’t they arrested them, but you? (This phrase is so
familiar)
- I asked that question with soft
and calm voices. Also I’m wonder why they arrested me. Could you at your
convenient ask them why.
Everybody was quiet when the
security agents wearing casual walked into the room.
A female security agent told me:
- We suspect you hid illegal
exhibits in your body. We recommend that you let us search your body.
I found this rationale familiar. I
suddenly thought this is the guise to pairing me to a crime. So I say:
- OK! If you want to do that, bring
me out in front of the public, I'm going to take off my clothes for everyone to
witness.
- You can’t say that! You are a
woman with honor and dignity. Strip you naked in front of the public, what
would they think of you?
- Right! To women their honor and
dignity are very important. But not because of that that I would let you
arbitrarily accuse me of any crime.
No matter what I said, they stick
to their plan. They restrained me, and gradually stripped off my clothes in
front of other security policemen and the amazing thing was they brought out a
video camera to record the event. I guessed their goal was to humiliate me. I
resisted and warned them:
- You had difficult took off my
clothes, but putting them back on me would be even harder.
When there were only underwear left
on me they stopped. Their camera remained pointed toward me. I went to a mirror
in the back to fix my hair and then looked toward the camera with a calm
attitude, I yelled:
- Record it. After you done
recording, don’t forget to post it on the Internet so the public can see your
vile actions.
After they were done recording,
they went out of the room for consultation.
I felt achy and weak because of the
beating, the humiliation, and the effort to fight back. I lie down on the floor
closed my eyes to think about their barbaric behaviors. Before becoming a
Catholics, I had stated that I would rather die than to let them trample on my
dignity. In those days, I would throw myself to a wall to end my life.
I started to feel cold and nausea,
I ran to the toilet. While I was vomiting, a woman introducing herself as a
nurse from the Health department of District 1 came to ask me if I was married
or had kids, then she asked me to pull down my panty for her to do a cavity
check. I asked her for the reason, she said, my vomit was related to my
digestive problem. I told her my vagina has nothing to do with my digestive
system, it might affect my urinary so I refused to let her check anything on my
body. Seeing that I was in such a bad condition, she went out of the room and
refused to do the cavity search requested by the security police.
The security people insisted that
she carry out the search. I walked out from the toilet and told her not to do
anything against the law and against her conscience. I pointed to the security
people and told her that she should let them do their job and don’t let them
pass on the responsibilities to her. I said they dared to undress me to video
tape me then there was no other dirty job they would not do.
The woman removed the gloves,
returned them to the security people and left the room. The security people
also walked out of the room. I sat down on the floor, the shock still lingered
in my mind. I hoped they wouldn’t do it. Because I was afraid if they do it, my
soul will suffer serious damage and hatred will present in me. I might destroy
myself and then them. I didn’t know how to prevent such things from happening.
I became immobilized and suddenly I sang the passage of peace and then I
prayed.
They returned with two new nurses
while I was still singing words from the passage of peace. They asked me to be
obedient and cooperate but I refused. They coercively carried me and put on a
table, they restrained my arms and my legs then proceed to strip me naked. I
resisted with all the force that I have left to fight back, a few times I
kicked some of them to the wall. I scratched their hands, pulled their hairs.
But the strength of one was no match to the four of them combined. In the end
they stripped me naked. They place their hands in my vagina. I felt hurt both
physically and mentally. After they were done with me, they force me to let
them put my clothes back on me. I refused to let them put my clothes back on
me. I said:
- Just leave me naked this way and
let me go home. You dared to do that afraid now? I'm not afraid then there is
nothing for you to be afraid.
They tried really hard to put my
pant back on me but they could not put my shirt back on me. They took my jacket
pull it up through my arms then they pull the zipper up on my back, Then they
left the room. There were tears rolling down from my eyes. I was thinking of
death. And then I thought about the words in the passage of peace, I thought of
the life of Jesus Christ and I smiled. While the security people were writing
their kind of reports, I heard the young security girl said:
- Uncle Hai ordered us to do that.
The uncle Hai that she referred to
could it be Le Minh Hai (who was in charge of the city security department),
the one who had given order for his people to do the same devil job on Blogger
Ta Phong Tan like they did on me today?
About 12:00 noon, they returned me
to the police station of Phu Thanh ward, in Tan Phu district (where I resided).
In the car I remember about what my friends were telling about the cruelty of
the Egypt rulers prior to the change, I felt very at peace that I spoke
directly to the security that:
- Today I'm very happy for having
two victories against you. The first is despite the fact that you did mobilize
a lot of people and efforts to stop me from leaving the house. But you failed,
I did arrive at the place where I wanted to go. The second, you used your vile
and dirty acts wanting to hurt my soul to instill fear in me, causing me to
retire. But I also want to let you know. It is true that violence and this vile
acts may cause people to surrender before you, but that works for the weak
only, with people like me those acts only strengthen my spirit and my
determination. You should convey my words to those who ordered you to carry out
these vile acts. And don’t forget to add that your skills are poor and inferior
to a woman like me that you had to rely on those dirty tricks.
I am glad that you have done those
behaviors. Because any social change would also have losses, sacrifices. What
you have done today shows me the signs of real change is coming very close. The
violence will kill the criminals like you.
At first, when I began to talk,
they wanted to hit me, but then only silence.
(to be continued...)
Nguyen Hoang Vi
* Tôi xin được mạn phép dịch lại
bài viết của cô Nguyễn Hoàng Vi sang tiếng Anh để loài người trên thế giới được
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Người dịch: Hai Tran
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